New Neighbors

Today my neighbors are moving out. I know this should’nt effect me but it does. We lived with them for about 13 years. Now new neighbors have just moved in! Today! Who are practically strangers. Are they good people? Are they psycholopaths! I hope not.

I hate to say this but I miss my old neighbors. Only now that they gone I realize how much like family neighbors really are. When they would go on holiday they would trust me to feed thier dogs.

Guess we all have to adjust to change. Its part of life. As for my new neighbors not sure if il ever have the same relationship with my new neighbors like I did with my old ones.

I am also kinda of disappointed because it would at least been nice if my new neighbors had hot daughters, but they dont! That said life goes on. Just have to accept having new neighbors and make my peace with it.

Im proud to launch my 1st kids ebook now available on amazon


Today im excited because I get to launch a kids ebook I’ve been designing for this last month. The book of course is called ‘Jack and Sofia’s space adventure’ like the picture above. I’ve finally found something im passionate about and I owe it all to my friend and business partner ‘Zak khan’.

I never imagined i’d design a kids book before. One day out of the blue my friend Zak says to me I have this idea! I was like not really into it at 1st. He said I’m a writer and you a graphic designer lets create a kids book company.

I thought it was insane because I usually design posters and edit photos. Ok I admit I stalled a bit because I was unsure where to start or if I even wanted to do this.

Once I got into designing mode I couldn’t stop. I loved designing these ideas for these kids books. My friend Zak did an awesome job with the writing of the book and the editing of the website.

Our companies name is ‘starsonmarsbooks’,because we are imaginative I’d like my readers, followers or anyone looking for kids books. Please support our book at

Just want say thankyou for taking the time to read my post and supporting me. My business partner and I have worked very hard on this book.

Living outside anxiety

Today for the first time I feel better about myself. Ever since I started getting treatment for my anxiety the symptoms of it have become less and less. This allowing me to be more productive with my life and become a little more confident.

Im not saying im 100% better but I am saying I am getting better. I’ve already accomplished a goal now and its only been 1 month since I’ve been on medication for anxiety. Also im getting out more often. Basically feeling a lot better about life.

Finally it feels like I can live a normal life. Still I have a lot work to do but im getting there thanks to the support of my family and close friends.

Recovery and pills from anxiety

Hi to all my readers and followers, I’d like to thank you for supporting me through my dark times. I’ve got good news. Its been a hectic few couple of months trying to get help for my anxiety. Finally I’m being treated. The medication I’ve been getting so far seems to be helping. I mean I went for an engagement party this last weekend and I haven’t experienced any social anxiety symptoms. I was actually able to enjoy myself.

I feel calmer and more relaxed now. Sure there are some draw backs to the medication. Its feels like I’m high on drugs sometimes and a little sleepy at times but the doctor says it will pass after a week or two.

I would like to thank my friend zak who pushed me to get help. God knows I wanted to end my life because I felt like I had no control over my life. Some how God made a way, gave me strength and sent the right people in my life to help me. I just want to write this post to let my readers know I’m fine. Thank you for following my blog. You are appreciated. Have and awesome wednesday :)

If you have any questions about anxiety please feel free ask?

Designed my first engagement decor board for my friends engagement

This last weekend my friend she was getting engaged. She asked me to do her a favour and make her a board or decor with saying like welcome to our engagement etc. Of course I said yes its been a while since I did something like this and I thought it might be fun. She bought all the things I needed to work with.

Friday night I began making the engagement board with the help of my niece. I needed her input and help to finish things more quickly since the engagement being saturday and all. We did not rush though, me and my nice began to experiment with different colours of glitter. Mixing them together and see if we could spice things up. We mixed red and sliver. Blue and aqua. These colour combinations worked out perfect.

Its been a while since I had fun like this. I’ve taken photos for those of you who want to see the decor board I created.

An epic night to end my 30th birthday



Yesterday was a big day for me. My 30th birthday. I didn’t really have anything planned for the day but my family and friends made sure it was a special day. I had a lot of phone calls and visitors yesterday. Also a lot of BBM, whatsapp and facebook birthday wishes messages.

My mom and dad gave me a small braai for a late lunch. Surprisingly I got a few presents. Still even though it was my birthday I was kinda sad because I miss my dog ‘King’ who recently passed away. My close friends helped me out though to feel better and taking me out for supper last night.

It was a good night we over ate and talked nonsense like friends do. We ignored each other for a bit while checking bbm and facebook messages. Also the place we ate at! The waiters came and sang a happy birthday song for me and giving me a free ice cream for my birthday. Just before we could go home we had desserts and I became over full that I was so tired! , but feeling satisfied because my friends made my birthday so memorable, bring an end to an epic night.

Finally started on some antidepressants

Hey its me sorry I haven’t been blogging for a while. It seems that depression had gotten the better of me. I have seeked help. My doctor has put me on a course of antidepressants. Its only been a few days I do feel calmer. I have to go see the doctor again this week to report how im feeling. Then his gonna recommend which hospital I can go for treatment and therapy.

I like to thank ‘Sadag’ which is the depression and anxiety helpline of south africa. They talked me into getting help instead of ending my life. Yeah its been very hard with the loss of my dog lately and me turning 30 soon and have achieved not much in my life which can make you feel quite worthless.

Anyway lets see how well treatment goes for my anxiety and depression. Who knows I might be writing about my success soon.