In honour of world aids day yesterday I decided to write this post and share my experience of when i got tested. It was a pretty scary experience. I mean the thought of being HIV positive was terrifying. I went to the newlands west clinic where i got tested. When I entered the clinic I was so nervous to tell the nurse I wanted a HIV test done. Finally I summoned the courage and told the nurse what I came for. Surprisingly it wasn’t as bad as I thought.
So now I’m waiting and its like time stood still where the minutes felt like hours because I was so scared that I might be HIV positive. Finally I went in to see the nurse. My body shaking with fear so nervous. The nurse kindly tells me to relax and if I’m positive it isn’t the end of the world. That the treatment they provide will help you live a normal life. Honestly I didn’t care about that. I just didn’t want to be HIV positive.
Finally the nurse ,she pokes my finger and puts the blood on a HIV/AIDS test kit. If 2 lines appeared on it. You are positive. If one line remains then you are negative. So I’m waiting and waiting and finally the nurse says you are negative. What a relief it was like I could finally breathe calmly again after hearing that.
Ever since my last sexual experience I learnt to get tested regularly to be safe for yourself and others. Remember to condomise it could save your life.
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Today is my dad’s birthday and thought I’d honor him with a post. To be honest I have a hard time expressing my feeling. I wish I could be bold enough to tell my dad how much I appreciate him. My father might never know how I feel but I do love him.
Sure his not perfect. He may not believe in my dreams, but he still inspires me. His the hardest working man I know. To see what he has sacrificed for me and my family is an inspiration itself. I wish I was more like him, bold confident and hard working.
So today I just want to say thank you dad for all you’ve done for me. When I needed my first computer. He worked the extra hours just so I could have one. The same goes for my 1st cellphone. Its easy to forget what was done but today I am reminded of what you’ve done for me.
Well I’m off for now. My sister is taking my dad and the rest of my family out for supper tonight so just thought I’d write this post before I go.
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I’m sure many of you will relate to this post. Having a passion or a dream isn’t always easy but its something on the inside of you that drives you. Motivates you and gives you purpose. Something you just can’t explain.
My dream is to work for myself be an entrepreneur and motivate people with my success and experience. Of course I haven’t achieved that success yet. I’ve had many set backs. When I got frustrated and saw my dream was going nowhere I took a break from things but never gave up on it. Sometimes a break helps you destress and recuperate.
I no I haven’t posted much on my blog lately. I’ve been so busy with so much going on in my live. Guess when things got bad for me I began to hate the things I loved like blogging ,graphic design and social media. That’s why I took a break from things, but now I’m back and love it more than ever.
I just want to say if you feel your dreams are going nowhere. Don’t give up take a break ,gain a fresh prospective and try again. Its easy to get caught up in your failure and think its never gonna happen. I’ve been there. You feel powerless and overwhelmed. Sometimes you must do what you can and worry about the rest later. If I ever had a philosophy for success it would be “Research, learn and practice”.
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Its just another day of unemployment sitting at home bored out of my mind. When sitting alone with your thoughts long enough you begin to dwell in negative thoughts. That just pisses me off. Maybe I need to focus my energy into something like a new project. Who knows this might be exactly what I need to get my confidence back.
I only originally wrote this 1st paragraph of this post earlier this week, but now its the weekend and just working on a project. I was right to do this because I’ve been focused on one thing only creating a logo for my facebook graphic design slash hobby page. Sure I got a little frustrated now and then coming up on ideas for a logo and name but it helped me get my mind of all the negativity I’ve been through lately.
Still doing some touch ups on a logo and chose a weird name for my facebook design page ,but I’m tired of trying to come up with the right or perfect name. I just need something to do and keep me busy.
If your wanna share your thoughts on life, graphic design, goals, dreams, advice or anxiety and depression you no what to do. Comment, email me or send me a tweet I’d be sure to listen to what ever you have to say. Cheers for now have an awesome weekend.
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Its been a while since I started designing graphics again. You could say at some point I lost my confidence. So I stop designing graphics because I didn’t feel like I was good enough compared to other graphic designers.
Losing my confidence wasn’t such a bad thing because I learnt some valuable lessons.
1. Photoshop, gimp, and corel draw has nothing to do with graphic design.
I know what you thinking those tools are what is used to create graphics right. Yes that is true! Kind of. When I lost my confidence in myself I still knew how to use every tool in gimp and photoshop ,but couldn’t design a single thing. Simply because I couldn’t think of anything because I was so depression, anxious and stressed. Your mindset has everything to do with graphic design.
2. There are different types of graphic design
1)Digital artist, 2)typography, 3)vector graphics, 4) Digital photography(tweaking photos and adding effects etc)
I’d say I have a little bit of all these skills but generally good at one of them. Lately I’ve been improving my vector design skills because I wasn’t really that good at it. Also vector designs plays a major role in logos, drawing, clipart, identity or branding. Its not an easy skill to learn but it is fun to play around with. It takes time and imagination to learn but I love it and will never stop learning.
Of course it doesn’t start with a computer. You can start with a simple pen and paper. Draw chicken stretches and explore from there. If you looking to get into graphic design. My advice to you is? Have a passion for it or you will find yourself frustrated and you will burnt out learning something that you just wanna to do for the sake of doing. Also have an imagination and believe in your designs even if you people say they suck. Work at it until you happy with it. Learn from other graphic designers and most of all never compare yourself with someone else.
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Monday was my 29th birthday and I’ve gotten a lot of wishes from friends and facebook. Late monday afternoon I got a late birthday wish via facebook inbox. It was a girl who wanted to date me a year ago. I didn’t date her because she just broke up with her boyfriend back then and I wasn’t willing to settle for being the rebound guy.
She wished me. We started talking. Eventually she gave me her bbm pin again. I had her bbm pin a year ago but I deleted her because we got into a fight etc. So we haven’t spoken since. We did some catching up and its seems she has a boyfriend now. Sure I had no problem with it, Until! She started talking about her sex life with me which was odd.
She went into great detail about it (“her sex life”) and it turn me on. I wanted her bad. Then! She reminded me about how I didn’t want to date her a year ago and I would of been enjoying her if I was with her now. I wasn’t sure if she was punishing me or making me realise what a mistake I’ve made. Either way I felt jealous.
I told her I was happy for her. Which I was ,but at the same time I didn’t wanna show her I was jealous. So we just friends now but I’m not sure if its healthy because since yesterday she’s been chatting to me non stop on bbm.
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Today was a busy day for me. My sister and niece came to visit me because tomorrow is my birthday. Later on my friend and I went to register to vote for next years south african election. This is my 1st time registering and never voted before. It didn’t even take 5 minutes
I’m not political but I wanted to do my part. Even if its something small. I asked some of my neighbours if their going to register to vote and they said? No and what’s the point the ANC party always wins. I used to think like that to but then I realised I was part of a problem not the solution. So this year I did do it differently and decided I will vote.
I’m not sure just yet who I will vote for, weather ANC, DA maybe COPE, but I’ll study the candidates carefully and make my choice when the time comes.
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