I’m so tired after working my ass off at work today. Yesterday i been having a terrible time adapting to my new job. As great as my mindset was I did my best and it wasn’t enough. I tried harder today and it was worse. The guy I was working with told me why I am so stupid and called another to ask him the same question and saying why are you like that. I couldn’t answer him and became overwhelmed and had a panic attack.
I don’t know if I can do this job any longer my best isn’t good enough. Working in a factory or workshop is hard for me but working with technology comes natural to me. This day I don’t get it how things got so bad. Talking and writing about success isn’t the same as what I believe. Working hard is something I found out the hard way. My confidence is shattered and I don’t know if I’ll have the strength to wake up tomorrow for work.