What is it! To be blessed?

Hi my friends and bloggers hope you been well. Lately something been worrying me. I’ve been blessed a lot the last month. Prayers are being answered. I don’t get why now. I’ve been praying in the past harder and was more dedicated to God back then. Now I just pray in the mornings but ever since my Dogs died I lost faith in God.

Recently I’ve become bored and empty with my life. Besides the fact I’m suffering from anxiety. I’ve prayed and asked God for a new cell phone and he gave me 2. Because of my anxiety I asked God for purpose and a job where I’d be able to work from home some how and he did that too.

I don’t understand. Is this what it means to be blessed. I’m not sure I deserve it. I’ve seen many more people more deserving and holier than me, their prayers un answered. So why is mine being answered all of a sudden. Don’t get me wrong I am grateful for God’s blessing. Just not used to prayers being answered I guess.

Finally received my alcatel idol alpha

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It’s been about week that I got the shocking news that I won a alcatel idol alpha smart phone.  I honestly forget i even entered the competition. 

Ever since i got the news that i won I’ve been super anxious because nothing good ever good happens to me.  So i was a little paranoid that maybe something will happen that might cause me not to get the phone or some mix up might happen. But finally yesterday i did Finally received it.  What was supposedly terrible turned into a great one.

People ask me why i only buy alcatel phones.  Because my first smart phone was an alcatel pixi 1 then the pixi 2 and now i won another alcatel phone. My answer though was I want to be unique and different and Alcatel allows me to be different. Also theymake phones I can afford.

A special thanks to digital street for hosting the competition and alcatel onetouch. Thank you for this honour.

Omg!!! I won an alcatel idol alpha smart phone thanks to #digitalstreet

Finally this is a post I’m excited to write about. Last night before I could go to bed about 10pm I just went to facebook to check my messages and updates only to get a shock of my life. You see about 3 weeks or so I entered a competition for an alcatel idol alpha and I forgot about it. I honestly didn’t think I’d win so I entered anyway since I’m a huge fan of the alcatel brand. As I said I checked my facebook only to find out I was there winner. I could not believe it. I wasn’t even sure if I really won. Then it finally hit me, fully of excitement busting inside of me. I never won a thing in my life and something has finally happened.

My 1st android smart phone was an alcatel pixi 1 and then I got a pixi 2. I just love how alcatel had rebranded themselves is why I support their brand because its such an inspiration to make a huge come back in the mobile industry.

I like to thank alcatel sa and digital street for this honour. It really means a lot to me. Now the only hard part is waiting for my new smart phone which I can’t wait to get :D

I’m not weird I have anxiety!

Hi bloggers and friends its a busy week for me with my nieces engagement this weekend. Having it at my home because of the big space. Anyway talking relationships. It comes to my attention some people think I am weird. Talking behind my back. I honestly don’t care. All I know is I’m going through a lot with my battle against anxiety and depression.

I’m 30 and single and people seem to be asking the question how come I don’t have a girl friend, or rather should I say! Probably family gossiping behind my back or so. The truth is my anxiety has progressed into social anxiety which means now I find to hard to be around new people or in public. Its often the reason why I don’t go out a lot now days and sit in my room and work from home. I hide behind social media to avoid human contact.

I know its not normal. I am on medication but it only helps calm me down and not adapt to real life situations. On the other hand if I don’t take my medication I want to kill myself.

Well welcome to the story of my life. Anxiety is real. You can’t pray it away but you can pray for the strength to face it everyday. I am slowly getting better through the help of God and medication but its a daily battle with sometimes a few set backs.

No time to blog! Work keeping me busy

Hi friends and bloggers. I know its been a while. I just want to say surprisingly life is good. I’ve been keeping busy with a lot of graphic design work coming my way lately and I’m grateful for the opportunities. Also finally now that I’m working more I could afford buying a new phone. I had a old alcatel pixi 1 with the android gingerbread os but now bought the alcatel pixi 2 with android jelly bean :) .

I’ve been through a lot in the last month. I honestly can say I’ve grown in a positive way. Sure I had some ups and downs with my design client but I somehow managed to pull through and meet my clients needs. It feels good to feel like I have a purpose. A reason to get out of bed in the morning.

Sure I’m dealing with my anxiety and depression issues still, but keeping busy helps not have time to be afraid or depressed I guess. Especially when you doing work that you love to do. I have been blessed in this month I thank God.

Well I’m glad I finally found some time to write a blog post. Finally free for the weekend no work. So gonna spend the weekend relaxing and catching up on tvshows and anime. Hope all of you have an awesome weekend too.

Finally achieved my client design goal

Hi followers, and friends. Hope you weekend is treating you better than its treating me. For me this weekend was about finishing a book cover design for a client. I’m happy to say I finally achieved that today thank God. It was easy but I was motivated. So much so that I was in the zone and managed to design 3 beautiful but elegant book covers.

I was friday night when I started. I wasn’t sure if I could get it done. Saturday came and I reminded myself why I need to do this and succeed. This is the 1st time I’ve challenged myself in a long time. I happy to say its been a long time since I felt alive like this.

Today was a win for me and I am grateful to God for giving me creative ability that help me achieve my clients goal. Also my friend Zak helped a lot more than he knows. He inspired me that I could do it even when I doubt that I could.

Anyway just had to blog my today progress. Have an awesome weekend.

Anxiety, graphic design and a difficult client

Its been about 2 weeks now that my friend organised me an opportunity to do some design work. The client wants a book cover designed. I’ve have a lot of failed attempts in pleasing this client, because I’m not really sure what he wants. Last week I designed a cover exactly how he wanted with the help of my friend Zak khan. He did like it then but changed his mind this week.

I need to wrap up this job by this weekend. I just met with my friend Zak earlier today to discuss design ideas. I believe we made progress. We always seem to be a good creative team. Now that I am home the lights are off because of load shedding which is something common here in south africa now days. So about 2 hours I’ll have to wait before the lights come on.

Waiting and waiting I’ve been building up anxiety. Feeling very anxious because I’m in the mode to design and I can’t wait anymore but I can’t do a thing till the lights come on. I had to take my anxiety meds because I began to breathe heavily and panic a little. Anyway I have my reasons for why I need to get this job done soon. I’m sure my friend Zak knows why to :) I’d also like to thank my friend Zak for this opportunity.

Wish me luck and everyone have a great weekend :)