When you hear yourself say I’m having a mid life crisis you know you getting old fast. I’m having a hard time accepting this. I feel like I’m still 23 years old when I’m actually turning 29 in november. Getting old sucks means dating older women like from 24 to 30 years old. I prefer women from 19 to 24 years because they have less expectations and not looking to settle down or something serious.
I’m still not sure what a mid life crisis is but i guess it comes with age. Maybe it means more responsibility. I think it hit me first when I first realised I was getting a little bald but otherwise its because I’m trying to find out who I am. Finding myself may sound corny or something you would hear in a movie. Never the less its truth. I’m not sure who I am because how my life has turned out. I thought by now I’d have some kind of success even if its small.
Now that I am turning 29 soon with no success in my life, no relationship makes you think and doubt ones self. Maybe this is just a monday blue moment. Who knows. Regardless tomorrow I’m seeking help and hope things go well. I do feel younger than I am just wish I was but life isn’t over yet just a new chapter. Maybe my 30’s my be moment I strike success but I’m hoping to do it before I hit 30.