Today as I woke up listening to a song. I became quite emotional. Basically I started to feel lonely. As the days, months and years are going by I’m seeing friends and family less and lesser. I can’t describe this feeling of loneliness. It makes me feel sick and empty at times.
I wish i could turn back time. The days when life was less complicated. No responsibilities. Just going out and having fun. Unfortunately we can’t go back to those days. Friends have kids others getting engaged. Their lives are busy. I’m happy for them, they my friend. I just miss them.
As for family. My brother can’t visit us his wife hates our family and won’t let him visit us. My sister lives a bit far off so I see her at church or special occasions like birthdays etc. Still even when we do get together the family! We couldn’t be further apart. Everyone’s on their phones chatting to someone else. That’s why I miss my dogs so much because when nobody was around they was always there for me. Now that they gone I’m still heart broken over it. What must I do life must go on.
The worst part of my life I’m the single guy in bunch of friends. Haven’t been in love since high school. How lame is that. I just think with age comes loneliness. Guess I was feeling more lonely that I realized writing this post.