Today was a new experience for me. It’s only been 3 session now that I’m seeing a psychologist. This week Tuesday I saw my psychologist, he recommended I try group therapy because It will help me get out of my shell and improve some self confidence. So I signed up. Today was our first session.
In truth I was so anxious the whole day before my group session. Felt like I wanted to puke. Also wondering who are these people. What are they gonna think of me. What if I make a fool of myself. But later on I did learn that it was a safe space so even if I did make a fool of myself. Everyone there is there to support and point me in the right direction.
Of course it wasn’t a regular group session. The theme was the here and now. We all in the group had to choose a goal that we would be witness to improvements of each others goals. My goal is to speak with confidence and have a more of a confident presence. Why? cause when it was my turn to talk. I froze words wouldn’t even come out of my mouth. I had to take a second to breathe deeply and dig deep to find any words I could. To say what I meant. Which didn’t go well at first because I stuttered at first but eventually managed saying my piece.
It was nice though to connect with people in a similar situation. I met amazing people today who just need a little help like myself in life. I was glad to go through today’s experience. As hard as it was facing my issues with a bunch of strangers. Looking forward to next week’s session.