It’s been after 3 months that I’ve been back in therapy. Today’s session was good, productive even. Learning what’s causing my anxiety. It’s mostly my core beliefs, that my thoughts process when ever I do anything. It tells me I’m not smart enough or don’t have what it takes.
Also there’s been a lot of physical symptoms these few months. When I’m anxious I get this annoying cough. Also my stomach feels knotted. Thirdly I’m not sleeping at night. My mind is over thinking and analyzing my life. It seems now I need my to focus a lot on mindfulness my Psychologist suggests. Because I’m not living in the present moment because my anxiety is always trying to predict slash fear the future.
I have now an idea of what I must do. Today I’ve done something very stupid. I was joking with a friend and kinda hurt him in the processes. So Zak if you reading this I’m so sorry bro. I’m deeply sorry and promise nothing like that will ever happen again.