Today I was reading a post from a blog I follow. The post mentioned what is the ideal life you want to live! The truth is! I’ve been so caught up in my own world of ‘anxiety and depression’ that I stopped thinking about the life I wanted!
So I took sometime to think about it and it wasn’t to hard to figure out. The life I want is to be a creative graphic designer. Meeting clients at coffee shops. Going to fancy offices having brain storming ideas with other creatives. Working out of a coffee shop with a laptop at times. Just having freedom of a life as graphic designer.
Yes there are ways of making money with graphic design online with stock graphics. For now I’ll do it cause I need the income but it isn’t my dream. Sometimes you have to ask the right questions in order discover what you want.
Guess reading someone else’s blog helped me discover what I want. Now I guess I have to work towards making it happen. Its been hard. I’ve given up more times than I can count but I have to keep on trying. Not only for myself but for others who maybe thinking of giving up on their dreams. I hope to be that inspiration so that they never give up.
Hey guys! I know its been a while. I’ve been sick with the flu. Stressing about work and frustrated with my dreams. After I got better from the flu a few days ago I began working on improving my design skills and I’ve been putting a lot of pressure on myself because I’m not improving overnight. This frustration is keeping me up at night. Also the moment I want to do something I feel uncomfortable and unable to find myself doing any task. I’m just there procrastinating.
Don’t get me wrong I’m not giving up but the process of getting better as a graphic design is harder than I imagined. Honestly how many times this week my mind tells me I can’t do this, no way I can design that. Its a constant mental battle day in and out.
Sometimes I find myself just wanting to go to bed early and waking up to the next day hoping that I’ve improved but when I go to bed I can’t sleep. All this stress is processing through my mind. Also with all the stress I’m having issues remembering stuff.
Sometimes I look at other people and get jealous that they can do things so easily, weather a job, studying. It comes natural to them. While I have to work 3 times as hard to barely reach their level. In my mind I just hate those bastards I’d say! But its just me being human! I know its no excuse.
I need to vent this! My struggle so people can relate. We only human right, we all go through things. This is just my situation. I love graphic design and I’ll keep at it but sometimes its just frustrating not getting the results you want as soon as you want it.
Hey everyone its me! Been sick with the flu for the last 2 weeks. That sucked but… Gave me time to think about what I really want in life. To be honest I wasn’t really sure what that was. All I know I want to be a graphic designer which I am, but wasn’t sure what was the possibilities of a graphic designer?
When I tell people I’m a graphic designer they always so negative. They say things like they are so many better graphic designers etc blah blah blah and how it won’t work. So I decided to go on youtube and look at videos of : ‘In the day of a graphic designer’. Guess what! I found what I was looking for. The possibilities 🙂 Dam I wanted that life. I’ve finally found the life I want to work towards.
So this video I found on youtube that inspired me was about a guy who eventually quit his job to go full time into freelance graphic design. His story inspired me. He didn’t care about the odds. He did what he loved and worked hard at it. He also shared tips and advices that inspired me to want to become a better graphic designer in terms of qualities of work.
So I finally figured out the type of graphic designer I want to be. Which I will share later on another post . Also thinking of starting a design blog so people get real life insight of a freelance graphic designer.
Ok I’ll end with this! I want to challenge you to find out what it is you want in life. Comment? Mail me. Hell facebook me If you must I want to know what you up to my readers 🙂
Lately apart from my job as a graphic designer. I wanted to slowly build my own client base and work from home. Be my own boss. I’ve already started putting things together. My website I’m working on, business cards etc. Recently one of these days this strange feeling just hit me. The reality of what I’m doing. This feeling of doubt came over me. Like? Are you really going to start your own business. Thoughts like no way you can do it.
Continue reading The feeling of doubt creeping in!
Hi sorry once again I’ve been so busy caught up with my job as a graphic designer. Been busy with a project for my boss but lately decided to work on side to build my own design company. I finally sorted my new email and now building the website.
Don’t get me wrong I love my job but I want to work for myself! Simply because I want more creative freedom. To create simple smart designs which also is my tagline for my business. Working for a company as a graphic designer is great. I learnt a lot but I feel I am restricted in terms of creative freedom.
So I won’t quite my job but I won’t stop building my business either. Its about to take off soon. I don’t consider myself an entrepreneur but in order to succeed I think I should! Life is short and we should live life the way we want but most of all challenge ourselves in order to live a fulfilled life. I’m glad I have the support from my family and friends.
Life is good and I feel so bless.
Its been about 2 months since I’ve been officially working as a full time graphic designer for a client. Handling all his design needs. Work is good. A week ago my dads, sister! also known as my aunt. Passed away due to cancer. So its been kinda hectic at home with my dad depressed. Me busy all the time with work. Just didn’t have the energy to blog until today because I finished early and had some time to kill.
Anyway the thing that was really taking my time was. Learning to design for print. It seems there are big colour differences between digital and print. It took me this whole weekend to colour correct a work design for print because the digital copy wasn’t printing out very well but I’m glad I know the difference now.
Another reason why I haven’t been blogging is! I’m using a ‘diary app’ to write my thoughts. Things that I can’t say on a blog because of anyone I might know could read it. The app is called ‘better diary’ its pretty awesome. It looks like a blog post on the app every time you write thoughts down. It has moods and tags features. I just love it.
Again I’m sorry it has taken me so long to write a post and apologies for any typo’s.
Hi friends and bloggers. I know its been a while. I just want to say surprisingly life is good. I’ve been keeping busy with a lot of graphic design work coming my way lately and I’m grateful for the opportunities. Also finally now that I’m working more I could afford buying a new phone. I had a old alcatel pixi 1 with the android gingerbread os but now bought the alcatel pixi 2 with android jelly bean 🙂 .
I’ve been through a lot in the last month. I honestly can say I’ve grown in a positive way. Sure I had some ups and downs with my design client but I somehow managed to pull through and meet my clients needs. It feels good to feel like I have a purpose. A reason to get out of bed in the morning.
Sure I’m dealing with my anxiety and depression issues still, but keeping busy helps not have time to be afraid or depressed I guess. Especially when you doing work that you love to do. I have been blessed in this month I thank God.
Well I’m glad I finally found some time to write a blog post. Finally free for the weekend no work. So gonna spend the weekend relaxing and catching up on tvshows and anime. Hope all of you have an awesome weekend too.
Hi followers, and friends. Hope you weekend is treating you better than its treating me. For me this weekend was about finishing a book cover design for a client. I’m happy to say I finally achieved that today thank God. It was easy but I was motivated. So much so that I was in the zone and managed to design 3 beautiful but elegant book covers.
I was friday night when I started. I wasn’t sure if I could get it done. Saturday came and I reminded myself why I need to do this and succeed. This is the 1st time I’ve challenged myself in a long time. I happy to say its been a long time since I felt alive like this.
Today was a win for me and I am grateful to God for giving me creative ability that help me achieve my clients goal. Also my friend Zak helped a lot more than he knows. He inspired me that I could do it even when I doubt that I could.
Anyway just had to blog my today progress. Have an awesome weekend.
Hi I know its been a while since I’ve blogged. I can explain! I’ve recently been busy with a business I’ve started with my close friend ‘Zak’. Im all new to this entrepreneur world but I’m loving what I do. For years as a graphic designer I had no purpose but now I do! I design books for kids.
In the past I’ve been living in the shadow of helping another friend’s with his dream! Whose name i will not mention, while I took a back seat to my own life helping him. Now that I’ve broken away from him I have found my own path which was painful but worth it in the end.
So far as an entrepreneur I’ve designed 2 books for amazon kindle. I dont handle the technical parts of the books, my business partner ‘zak’ takes care of all the marketing and writing of the books. I just design them.
So far we had some small successes with our books and I know its gonna get bigger because we love what we do.
Sure it isn’t always easy to wake up each morning motivated but if you love doing something you do it despite how you feel or even if people may discourage you. Its worth doing.
I’ve found my dream, my purpose and what I want to do with my life. I read books to stay motivated and learn from other peoples successes. I listen to pat flynn podcasts. Im always learning and thats what I think what being a entrepreneur is all about.
I hope by reading my blog post you will realize your dreams as well. Life is to short to live any other way.
Twenty fourteen what a year. Im sure many of you would agree. If you been reading my blog you know my story. I suffered a loss of my dog ‘King’. Finally got help for my anxiety towards end of this year. Distanced myself from people who have had a negative impact on my life. Started a kids book company towards the end of this year also.
That pretty much sums up my 2014 year. Its been both good and bad but i suffered my greatest loss, losing my dog.
As for 2015 id love to work full time from home as an entrepreneur. It is my goal and my dream to work for myself. Hopefully my kids book company will take off this coming 2015.
Guess this new years eve I wont be making any new years resolutions. Besides no one really keeps them. Im just gonna work hard, pray, and believe 2015 is gonna be my year of success.