Possibly my new job I’m starting today!

I’m awake its 5:30 am and I’m getting ready for a possible new job. My church has position able for data entry I’m not sure what’s the story just so nervous. Guess will see how the interview goes and hopefully there’s no completion to deal with. My last job ended badly in failure I just hope god gives me that favour to succeed here.

LMFAO I haven’t even told my parents or friends about this job they think I’m going to help the church for something. Maybe I didn’t wanna get their hopes up for nothing until I knew for certain. Well will see how it goes will let you’ll know how the journey goes! Good or bad I know you “guys” are always there me. This could be the fresh start I’ve been hoping for. Anyway fingers crossed wish me luck 🙂

#personal_note: Trying something new can be terrifying. It is better to have tried and failed then to have not tried at all. Otherwise you never learn anything.

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Clueless Monday’s

Monday’s no one is really ready for it. Everyone hates going back to work after a relaxing weekend. For me this monday is a clueless one. I find myself without a purpose. Being unemployed is harder than I taught. When I say clueless! I don’t just mean monday’s. My life seems clueless because I’m not sure if anything I’m doing is right ,weather or not my dreams will work out.

Maybe I’m just feeling the monday blues. All I can do is believe in myself. Having a dream, goal or passion is never certain that you will ever accomplish what you set out to do. All I’ve done today is watch a tv show called homeland which is awesome from the morning. The rest of my days is pretty clueless. Sometimes I just feel like life is standing still and i want to do something but have no idea how to.

There are some productive things I could do? Like contact clients who need any graphic design done for them. The reason I haven’t done so! Is because I suck at publicly or just speaking in general. I’m sure they will see right through me. I get nervous easily. Maybe I’m just making excuses. Like I said before I’m pretty clueless. I would love some advice on the matter instead of using google to look for answers.

Hope you not having a clueless monday people so enjoy your day.

Personal_note: I’m not a terrorist just willing to die for my dream

Hustle till it hurts! Life’s hard

The truth be told I never knew what it meant to hustle! I always taught hustle meant struggle forever. My life right now is hard financially and personally. No luck with finding a job or boosting my freelance career yet! Today I was so frustrated trying to out think or find away to make money. I began to panic because I need money to help my family. Anxiety got me too. When I’m down and depressed I always like to read about success stories of how people from poverty achieve success.

After reading a few success blogs I finally understood what it meant to hustle. You simply have to do everything in your power. Consider every option and make what you have work in your favour. So if you really think about it people who hustle are creative. Smart even! I still may not know what to do but I do feel more confident now that I will. To hustle sometimes means doing something you wouldn’t normally do. Sometimes our strengths isn’t in what we know but rather what we learn in risks we take.

I have to hustle my ass off everyday. Learning skills and looking for ways to improve so someone can hire me for a job. Just because I’m unemployed doesn’t mean I can do nothing. Truth be told I’m not even sure that anyone will hire me because I have a useless cv/resume with no experience. What makes it worst I failed high school didn’t pass the last year. What’s my point here. I didn’t give up. I hustle.

I’m sorry if this isn’t as motivational as I hoped. All I know is other than myself people are suffering because of unemployment. If we had more freelancer’s and self employed companies it would help change that. You could be that change. Things might be bad but I’m saying don’t give up! Hustle. Others have succeeded why not you.

Personal_note: To hustle doesn’t mean you weak. Its means smart enough to keep trying 🙂

I’m 28 but feel like i’m a child in an adults body

I’m a 28 year old guy whose care free and loves to have fun with friends. So far my live is about enjoying life blogging, hanging out with friends, checking out the latest movies, watching my favourite anime. I’m not about responsibility. I just can’t handle it. Life is to much for me to handle I guess. I don’t know the first thing about responsibility.

I’m unemployed at the moment and I’m afraid to find a job because once I do ,I will have become responsible for taking care of our home. My father is the only one working now. Sometimes I feel the pressure of finding a job when times are hard at home. Honestly I wish I wasn’t this way! All I want to do is play games and design graphics on my computer.

Everyone has to grow up sometime. I’m not ready. Procrastinating is my speciality. I’m afraid of being a grown up because every choice you make from here on out has consequences. I barely made it at my last job. Guess playing it safe and sitting home playing on my computer is very child like. If I could I would remain a child but we all know that’s not gonna happen.

I gotta face reality sometime. The question now is, how does someone whose so child like face the world. Yes I have dreams but never actually made the attempted towards it. Of course its scary when people gonna depend on you to pay the bills all the time. I don’t want to grow up so that can become my life. 28 years is close to being 30 and that makes me even more nervous knowing time isn’t on my side.

I can grow up or let life past me by. Its not a choice “that” I know. Now I must grow up get a job, live my dreams, get married and have children. Sounds easy right but where do I start. I’m writing this post as I’m thinking about changing my life. Most people won’t admit stuff like what I’m writing on this post because people hate being judged. I don’t really care about what people think now.

Its so hard letting go and taking on responsibility. The pressure is getting to me. Getting a job is so hard because you need experience to get the job. If you don’t work you can’t get experience and if you don’t have experience you can’t get a job. How messed up is that. This is exactly why the real world sucks. I rather be playing age of empires on my computer while having tea.
Guess after some time the real begins to make a man out of you.

Once you realised your goals and meet a girl. Then you start to do grown up things. You slowly forget that you was once child minded and then the real world begin’s to make sense.