It’s been like 2 months now I haven’t gone for therapy and I feel so lost. In my therapy session I feel that sense of calm like it’s a safe place and I’m accepted and understood for my anxiety. Sadly because I’ve been become so sick with some kind of chest infection which I honestly thought it was bronchitis.
Therapy does help maybe not over night but it gives me some kind of direction that I should take instead of guessing how to move forward or procrastinating. Honestly I wish my parents would be more supportive about my anxiety they don’t really think much of it as a real problem. I feel alone at home. I’ve also feel like I’ve got no emoticons these days. The only thing I feel now is when fear or when anxiety comes over me.
How did I get here. If only I’ve caught on I’ve had anxiety from a young age maybe I would of been better by now. Still I’m working with therapy and most of all putting my faith in God so I can be cured of this anxiety.
I’m so tired of writing posts complaining how anxiety is screwing with my life. I want to be writing success posts but life won’t let me.
In truth I’m a slow learner. It’s hard for me to understand or comprehend things easily. Sometimes I feel so stupid. It’s probably why I can’t hold a job or cope. There are times where I just wanna be left alone till I die. I hate the person I’ve become. A person without emotion. Who doesn’t care about anything anymore just trying to get to the next day in peace. My mind is a living hell.
I’m hoping with therapy, prayer this year my life will turn around some how.