Deactivated my Facebook

Lately I found myself depressed by going on Facebook. The truth is I am a little jealous when I see how much people got going on, in their lives compare to mine.  I know I sound petty.  Maybe anxiety is to blame or I want to blame anxiety. Facebook shows me beautiful women that I know I can’t have.  So much temptation. 

So Facebook has been bad for my mental health and so I decided to deactivate it. I t’s been a few days and honestly I’m feeling better. Maybe it was an addiction to see my Facebook posts how many likes and comments I would get that would determine my worth.  Sounds stupid but it’s how I felt because I needed something to make me like I was important. That I mattered. Sometimes I would check my Facebook every 5 to 10 minutes.

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Human contact!

Hey its me sorry for the late post. Its been a hectic past 2 weeks with work and my birthday. Oh yeah I turned 32 on the 11th november. I don’t feel any older though. Work been crazy I think I pull off the impossible there meeting deadlines. Anyway lately I’ve been yearning for human contact! Ever since I been going for therapy and group therapy. I feel like I re integrated myself back into the real world. Because before my social anxiety was very bad and thanks to therapy. I feel more confidence being around people.

The problem now is? There isn’t any people around to socialise with or go out with. My friends are to busy with their own lives which I get. Also everything is instant messengers and social media when it comes to conversations with friends, so we don’t have to meet. That part sucks the most. Yes social media and IM+ where cool when they first came out. Now they just limit more human contact. This frustrates me and makes me feel lonely.

I can’t remember the last time I went out or saw a movie with friends or family. Mostly me and my friends download movies and series and just watch them but ourselves. Yes again life is starting to feel kinda lonely. I know most people would say get a girl friend but I don’t think one person gonna solve my yearning for socialising. Lucky though I have group therapy for the next 2 weeks. So hopefully things will get better from there.

Can’t believe I inspired an anxiety support group on #googleplus

Hi my name is Vishal and I suffer from anxiety. Like many others out there. I was seeking help online through social networks about anxiety. In my searches I realised that there wasn’t much support out there for people suffering from anxiety. Sure there are websites and stuff out there, but they usually want you to buy their book or something!

I was looking for place! No a group/community where people with anxiety could engage and share with one another they true feeling and know they are not alone. Not to long a go I started using google plus a lot. I’ve made some good friends there. A shout to Samuel Vain who inspired me to write this post.

So I’ve been searching through googleplus! Hashtag #anxiety and found a women named Sarah talking about how she used to have anxiety. So I commented and gave a small speech about how there needs to be a group for people who suffer from anxiety.

Little did I know my speech would spark a movement. I think Sarah or my friend Samuel created such a group now. Only late last week did I find out about this group when I wrote a post on googleplus about how I had anxiety that week. Then my friend Samuel told me! Have you forgotten there is such a group for anxiety! One that you helped inspired and was created for people like us.

I never imagined I would inspire such an act! An anxiety support group. I just joined the group recently. Sadly the group page doesn’t work on your mobile if you got a blackberry like me or using operamini. It does work on android and desktop devices though. If you interested in joining this anxiety support group add me googleplus www.gplus.to/vishal4nw

I hate you #pinterest

Today I’ve spent all day trying to set up a pinterest account for my graphic design brand. I spent like an hour sorting out my password because every time I’d try to like somebody’s picture it will tell me there’s something strange with your account so logout and reset password. So I’d do just that. I’d Logout and reset password, then I’d try to use pinterest again and like someone’s photo and then again it tells me to reset password.

I was so pissed like an angry bird. Just wanted to launch my head into the Pc monitor. What ever money I had I bought data to use on my 3G data card to setup my pinterest and now its eating my all data. So I’ve sorted nothing. Finally I reseted my password for the last time and then tried logging into pinterest with my blackberry using operamini. Guess what the stupid thing told me to reset my password.

I’m so annoyed my data is finished! Yesterday googleplus pissed me of but not as bad as pinterest. I even tried using my personal pinterest account and they telling me to reset my password. I can’t change the password on my phone, only on the computer which can’t now with all my data finish. So far no luck launching my graphic design brand online 😦

I generally did love pinterest until this stupid issue.

jealous #tweets

Social networking is what I do! Making friends. Today I noticed on facebook a female friend of mine posted a status follow me on twitter. So I did. We used to chat sometimes via inbox on facebook and had some great conversations.

Today we connected on twitter having some awesome but casual conversations. Nothing flirty. Just general conversation that was going well. Until? I got a tweet from a guy saying leave his girl alone? I was confused. A guy getting jealous over a twitter conversation. Besides she’s all the way in jozi and I’m in durban nothing could go on between us even if we wanted to.

I replied calmly to guy saying it was just a friendly tweet and you got nothing to worry about. We just facebook friends and its true. Well I replied to my friend on facebook. Inboxing and asking her if that is her boyfriend because I didn’t want to cause any problems. Neither has my friend or her fake ass boyfriend has replied. Yet they actively on twitter and facebook after I sent those messages.

Anyway I just think even if that guy is her boyfriend. He got issues. Because his asking me to be antisocial on a social network. Blah blah blah! If his so strict he should tell his girlfriend to stay off social networks for his own insecurity issues.

How many other girls I chat to on twitter that is somebody’s else’s girlfriend but they boyfriends don’t complain. Anyway it is still to be confirmed weather or not he is her boyfriend but I don’t really care. If I wanna tweet a friend I will. Until she tells me to back off only then I will.

Choosing a name for my graphic design facebook page is hard!

Welcome back bloggers, tweeters and friends from an awesome weekend. I wonder what you’ve been up to. As for me I’ve been working on a name for my graphic design brand. I tell you thinking of names is hard. I’ve been frustrated out of my mind thinking of names. What ever cool names I did think of! Is usually taken.

I really need to get this done because I feel without purpose being unemployed and all. Also I can’t do any freelance work without a company name or brand, otherwise people won’t bother to hire my services but if I got a facebook page with my designs, prices and contact details. I’ll be more likely to be known as a brand and get business slash clients.

Once I’ve accomplished that I’ll feel like I have a purpose or something to work towards. I don’t want to rush creating my facebook page but I feel pressured to do so. Still regardless on the name I am excited and eager to get things started. You know that feeling when you passionate about something that’s how I feel about this. If anyone knows any creative names or anything to do with graphic design feel free to comment.

I want to be the next apple type brand but in graphic design. Just maybe I could strike gold with my design brand. I don’t pretend to be an expert on branding but I do read a lot of blogs and ebooks. So fingers crossed hope it all works out guys. 🙂

Almost got sued for blogging about people on facebook

Getting sued is no joke but the reason I was getting sued was! I wrote a article a while back about how some people get famous through facebook. Because I thought it was interesting and would make a great article. So I wrote the article. The other people I wrote about had no problem with my article accept for this one girl. She insisted I take off the article. I didn’t write anything bad about her. In fact I wrote good things.

She had a problem with it and inboxed me on facebook asking me who gave me permission to write about her. She argued for a while as I tried to take it all in. Guess I assumed I had freedom of speech until she threaten me with a law suit. It was scary at 1st but luckily for me my friend is studying law and i got his advice. My friend advised me that she can’t sue me as long as I didn’t break defamation of character, which I didn’t.

Even with the law on my side I didn’t want to piss off this girl anymore. So I took off the article. After all her bullshit, she told me its great what you doing and that maybe if I got to know her better maybe then she would let me write about her after asking for permission of course. Lmao she unfriended me on facebook after that conversation so her words was lies. Maybe I shouldn’t of been nice in the article. In all honesty it was a great article but one I had to discard thanks to miss high and mighty.

Sometimes doing nice things don’t pay of, instead you get sued. So anyone writing articles about people make sure not to break that person’s defamation of character or will get sued. This is just a tip and advice to all your bloggers. Learn from my mistakes and keep on writing.